At the beginning of the summer, I was feeling pretty good about myself. I was keeping busy with work, and I was actively working out, and I was loving working at the temple on Saturday mornings. I felt like I was in a good place, mentally and spiritually - invincible, almost. Like nothing could touch me. I was driving home from the temple one Saturday morning, feeling particularly untouchable, when I said to myself, "Nothing can bring me down now; do your worst, Satan, you can't touch me!"
I don't know what made me say it in my mind. Who would think something like that? WHY would they think that? I don't know - pride, I guess. (Huh... I guess he COULD get to me.) In any case, I was thinking that he couldn't touch me spiritually, because I felt so strong. But I failed to be specific in my dare, and boy did I ever learn a lesson! Satan certainly has his ways of getting to you. I may still be spiritually strong, but since that day, my self esteem has gone steadily down, while my weight has been creeping up, up, up - in spite of doctor's visits and all the exercise that I like to do. Whatever discipline I had physically has been faltering, and I know that if I don't do something, I'm going to crash and burn - and, judging from the number on the scale, it would be a heavy and fiery crash!
So, with the help of my sisters, I decided to visit a diet & nutrition clinic, get some tips, and start an extremely rigid diet and exercise program. It's going to be hard - no more Coke with lime! - but it's going to be healthier for me overall. I made a goal to run another half-marathon next summer (I'm insane, I know), but I can do it. I'm going to get my weight and health under control. I'm going to stop eating donuts...
...and start eating more apples. :)
(AND stop challenging the devil.)
6 comments:
ahhh Mel!!! No matter what remember that you are beautiful inside and out and that I think you are the coolest, and that is all that matters!!! Call me so we can go to lunch. We can make it healthy I promise!!
You can SO do it!
Have you had your Thyroid checked? If not DO IT! It took over a year for me to get my under control, but I feel so much better. YOU CAN DO IT! I know you can. And you have an AWESOME support system. I love you tons!
Gosh I hate that scale. Weird how much power it holds huh? But Mel! You're not alone! I'm going through the same thing right now! I'm trying to go on a strict diet and exercise a whole lot more. Like every day. And I would like to thank you for the picutre of the apples. YUM! They look so amazing! I think I'll go get some right now.
YOU CAN DO IT! You are amazing and gorgeous! I've been working on eating healthy this summer, hurray for apples! (And damn the Devil!) ;)
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