Today, I had a meltdown. Not just a minor "I'm really busy" moment, but a major 'run-to-the-bathroom-and-bawl' meltdown. A 'don't-look-me-in-the-eyes-or-I'll-cry-again' meltdown. The words "I'm giving my notice" were actually on the tip of my tongue when I was talking to my supervisor today. I still feel like walking down to the office manager's office and throwing my water in her face and screaming at her. I've been in tears off and on since about 2:00 this afternoon; I've managed to make three people feel guilty, and a fourth feel bad for me. The fifth person, who gave me some much-needed advice, is who I need to give a shout out to.
Emily "The Mug" (http://emilythemug.blogspot.com/) came to my rescue. After taking a quick look at my red eyes and hearing my quavering voice, she said, "Get your coat on, we're going to Starbucks."
So she listened and I talked... and talked... and whined... and complained. And she just listened and offered some excellent advice. She gave me a hug and just let me cry. She pointed out that stuff at work seems like a big deal because I have so much other crap going on in my life right now. DUH, how come I didn't see it that way? She's right! I feel like I've lost control over my social life, my health, my home life, and my spiritual life. So naturally I lost control over my work life. She helped me understand that I don't need to do everything, and do it alone - it's okay to ask for help and involve other people. She also bought me a vanilla bean frappuccino, which makes EVERYTHING better. (No lie - if you've never had one, go get one. No coffee in it, just pure sugary goodness.)
Anyway, thank you Mug, for being there when I needed you. You are the GREATEST. :)
4 comments:
You could not be any sweeter Meloo! Things will get better. Its just a crazy time. But you are an incredible person and everything is going to be fine. That said - PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do the water throwing thing. But we should sell tickets first. I call front row!
Mel... I'm sorry that things are so tough right now. One of the things I appreciate about adversity is that it humbles us... it helps put us in a position to really rely on the Lord and be blessed by His love. Your Heavenly Father and His son, Jesus Christ, love you so much, Mel. I was reminded at that Christmas devotional of how much they love me and how much they want to strengthen and support me, all it takes is for me to turn to them. So I invite you to do the same... remember the words of the Savior when He said in Mathew 11:
28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
Your family loves you Mel, as do your Heavenly Father and your Savior... and they are not unaware of your struggles and your efforts to serve and help. God bless you for your efforts to help and lift others, and don't be afraid to lean on your friends and family when you need rest. :) We love you!
yea for what mikie said!! I think we've all had these times when everything sucks. And I know that (in your words): "the lord is preparing you for some amazing things". You'll make it through the funk! You are such a special person and you're MADE to be happy. You make others happy all of the time. I love you so much! And i'm excited for our girl's night on Saturday. call me anytime. Love, em
gotta love a good cry and a fresh perspective from a friend every now and then. and how great is it that we have a new year to start with a fresh slate!?
glad i got to see ya and that you got to meet mckinlay on sunday! enjoy your newly returned siblings!
happy new year mel! and if you resort to any water throwing...i expect you to blog about it in detail! :)
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